Bimbimo’s Weblog

hello there. Yeah I know I haven’t updated for 2 days now. Been working on saturday from 12.30-11pm. Tiring and frustrating to work with a place full of weird customers. But I love what I’m doing now. So on Friday I went for an outing with the Cotton On crew from other outlets. I had fun making fun of people around us. I love them all for what ever they are . They are a group of fun and really caring people. I enjoy their company.

Oh yeah and I suddenly feel like getting a girlfriend. hahaha yeah I know it’s weird coming from a guy like me. “no woman, no cry” hehehe. yeah but I really can’t help it sometimes. I do get lonely and I need special attention, I need to be loved(especially with little attention I’m getting from parents). Well, who knows if I can get to know someone new and click with her. But the past is also not a bad thing.. What I meant is EX-GIRLFRIEND. yeah. maybe I have learnt a lesson or two in the process of being single. So, yeah…who knows. But I have someone or two in mind though.. Hey, I’m still single and available..having one or more is alright.. It’s like window-shopping.    I hope tomorrow will be a sunny day. Cause I’m going swimming with YanaKucing.

  Hey. It’s like 12 midnight and I just woke up. I slept at 8 just now just to have a quick nap. But now I can’t sleep. It’s been going on for quite some time now. I’ve been sleeping late. 3-5 am late. I think that’s what been ruining my health now.

Ok so I went to work from 12-5 just now. Went home straight cause I’ve got nothing on and I was tired. Nothing’s been on much with life now.. I think tomorrow my pay’s banked in already. It’s on every the 7th.   Gosh I’m having flu. The sneezes are so annoying but kinda nice feeling after I’ve sneeze.   Chat with Aya for a while just now.  And I called Mai but she didn’t pick up the call. But she called me and text me back . Unfortunately, I was sleeping and what a waste. Could have talked with her. It’s okay.. she’s having her test later so she should study for it,man.

I think that it for today.

Oh yeah!! Ayie called. He wanted to borrow my guitar chords book. I don’t have on. And he wanted to borrow my guitar amp. Woow NO WAY! hahahaha. I told him I don’t wanna lend it to him cause every single thing that he borrowed from me, did not came back in the condition I gave to him. My Topman shirt, it’s colour ran off, from brown to bleached brown. WTF!!!!!!! fav shirt. and he gave it back months after I lent it to him with a yellow stain saying that it was there when I gave it to him. I don’t believe him.  Oh how about my first electric guitar. It was a birthday gift from my Dad. I lent it to him and it came back with damages. That fucking broke my heart and it was already the last straw. Ayie said he didn’t get the spare parts. I put them all in the bag when I lent it to him.  He fucking broke the part where I put the guitar strap on to hang around my shoulder. And the best part of it, HE DIDN’T EVEN APOLOGISE !! HE TRIED TO HIDE THEM ALL FROM ME. I want him to fix them all together or pay for it.

OK. At last, after months of him stepping on my head, I stood up for myself

 Hey it’s been months since I’ve stopped blogging. So far in my life now, I’ve got a part-time job at Cotton On ( clothes store), got to spend time with mom playing kites with her and i’ve been single for 1 yr 2 mths now. Oh yeah and so far no new girl in my life. Except for this one, but she’s far away. Mom gave her my email and she added me through facebook and we’ve been talking alot on the phone. And yes…. my bill went up to $400.  hahaha yeah i know it’s a lot to pay. But hey, I’ve got my job to pay off the bill. But my planned trip to Jakarta was cancelled cause of that.

Oh yeah I finally said hi to Mai after soooooo many months. I guess I needed time to freshen up my mind. I read her blog the other day and she was having problems with her life. So that was the reason why I started a conversation with her on MSN earlier. I figured she needed someone to cheer her up. Shit, I know she has a boyfriend now. But I couldn’t help it. We webcammed, chat and sang. We sang old songs that reminds us of the times we had then.. hmmm.   I was singing Untukmu Selamanya by Ungu to her on guitar. I could have sworn she shed a tear.. I don’t know why she did though..She sniffed.  Well, if she did, I just want her to know that I’ve shed my tears for her before that I just couldn’t cry anymore now.  I like it when she keeps looking at me on the computer screen.

Tomorrow I’m gonna be working from 12pm – 4pm and then head home to rest. Yeah I had fever today. I’ll be signing off now then. Gotta get more rest.

Had tons of fun celebrating Ex’s,Farah birthday. She turned 15. I gave her a birthday card and a t-shirt . And hell was i glad that it fits her just nicely. Cuaght up on things and the past with her. It would have been a year if we didn’t break up that January. Some people find it weird that we’re ex bf and gf yet we still are friends. Well, to all boys & girl out there. Don’t let relationship ruin your friendship. Go figure!!!

When will “she” call me? Does “she” ever thought about me? I’m waiting .

d’Masiv – Merindukanmu

Saat aku tertawa diatas semua
Saat aku menangisi kesedihanku
Aku ingin engkau selalu ada
Aku ingin engkau aku kenang

Reff :
Selama aku masih bisa bernafas
Masih sanggup berjalan kukan slalu memujamu
Meski ku tak tahu lagi engkau ada dimana
Dengarkanlah aku kumerindukanmu

Saat aku mencoba merubah segalanya
Saat aku meratapi kekalahanku
Aku ingin engkau selalu ada
Aku ingin engkau aku kenang

tak pernah aku mengerti
apa yang kini aku rasakan
kegelisahan hatiku saat ini

ku masih merindukanmu
walaupun kiniku tlah bersamanya
tak pernah mampu ku coba lupakanmu

Chorus:
sungguh tak bisa
ku mengganti dirimu dengan dirinya
sungguh tak sanggup aku
berpaling darimu

sungguh tak bisa
ku mencintainya tuk melupakanmu
sungguh tak sanggup aku
berpindah dari hatimu

Chorus 2x

sungguh tak bisa
ku mencintainya tuk melupakanmu
sungguh tak sanggup aku
berpindah dari hatimu

I didnt move on that fast. i still do think about you.

Its funny how strangers,become friends,then lovers &then strangers again.
Its funny how you told me that all you wanted was me,and you would do anything do be with me.
Its funny how you make me feel that i was the bestest thing that happened to your life.
Its funny how i always think of you when songs on my Ipod are played.
Its funny how you make me laugh over the same old jokes.
Its funny how you said that i was the only girl who could brighten up your day.
Its funny how i always do not have time for you.
Its funny how i never really told you how i felt.
Its funny how you moved on so fast.

 SORRY SORRY SORRY.. been busy all these while with school.

Had fever yesterday but im alright now.

And what’s the news between me and her? Udah ga ada apa-apa lagi.

Dia yg bilang gw dan dia cuma teman. Tapi kenapa dia jadi emosi waktu gw nelpon cewek lain. Yang dia bilang ” no wonder you didn’t contact me much for 2 days, you found someone new”

The truth is, gw baru aja kenal tu cewek untuk beberapa hari aja dan gw sibuk banget ama kuliah so that’s why gw ga contact dia . Tapi dia ga mau dengerin penjelasan gw. Begini lah kalo punya “cewek” yg sok nasihatin “DON’T JUMP TO CONCLUSION.GET YOUR FACTS RIGHT” Dia sendiri yg jump to conclusion bahawa gw uda punya cewek laen. taeeeeekk amet.

Dengerin gw, kalo lo anggap kita berdua cuma temenan, kenapa harus marah2 dan jealous gitu terhadap gw contact cewek lain?

OH YEAH! Lo juga bilang ” leave me alone!”  Kalo itu mau lo, terserah. gw bakal ninggalin lo. Yg pasti lo akan bahagia tanpa gw. lo makan tu kata-kata lo sendiri. Udah cukup gw disakitin . you think about yourself.