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Yes,yes… I’ll update.

bimbimo — Sun, 08 Mar 2009 17:34:03 +0000

hello there. Yeah I know I haven’t updated for 2 days now. Been working on saturday from 12.30-11pm. Tiring and frustrating to work with a place full of weird customers. But I love what I’m doing now. So on Friday I went for an outing with the Cotton On crew from other outlets. I had fun making fun of people around us. I love them all for what ever they are . They are a group of fun and really caring people. I enjoy their company.

Oh yeah and I suddenly feel like getting a girlfriend. hahaha yeah I know it’s weird coming from a guy like me. “no woman, no cry” hehehe. yeah but I really can’t help it sometimes. I do get lonely and I need special attention, I need to be loved(especially with little attention I’m getting from parents). Well, who knows if I can get to know someone new and click with her. But the past is also not a bad thing.. What I meant is EX-GIRLFRIEND. yeah. maybe I have learnt a lesson or two in the process of being single. So, yeah…who knows. But I have someone or two in mind though.. Hey, I’m still single and available..having one or more is alright.. It’s like window-shopping. I hope tomorrow will be a sunny day. Cause I’m going swimming with YanaKucing.

Insomnia

bimbimo — Wed, 04 Mar 2009 17:08:28 +0000

Hey. It’s like 12 midnight and I just woke up. I slept at 8 just now just to have a quick nap. But now I can’t sleep. It’s been going on for quite some time now. I’ve been sleeping late. 3-5 am late. I think that’s what been ruining my health now.

Ok so I went to work from 12-5 just now. Went home straight cause I’ve got nothing on and I was tired. Nothing’s been on much with life now.. I think tomorrow my pay’s banked in already. It’s on every the 7th. Gosh I’m having flu. The sneezes are so annoying but kinda nice feeling after I’ve sneeze. Chat with Aya for a while just now. And I called Mai but she didn’t pick up the call. But she called me and text me back . Unfortunately, I was sleeping and what a waste. Could have talked with her. It’s okay.. she’s having her test later so she should study for it,man.

I think that it for today.

Oh yeah!! Ayie called. He wanted to borrow my guitar chords book. I don’t have on. And he wanted to borrow my guitar amp. Woow NO WAY! hahahaha. I told him I don’t wanna lend it to him cause every single thing that he borrowed from me, did not came back in the condition I gave to him. My Topman shirt, it’s colour ran off, from brown to bleached brown. WTF!!!!!!! fav shirt. and he gave it back months after I lent it to him with a yellow stain saying that it was there when I gave it to him. I don’t believe him. Oh how about my first electric guitar. It was a birthday gift from my Dad. I lent it to him and it came back with damages. That fucking broke my heart and it was already the last straw. Ayie said he didn’t get the spare parts. I put them all in the bag when I lent it to him. He fucking broke the part where I put the guitar strap on to hang around my shoulder. And the best part of it, HE DIDN’T EVEN APOLOGISE !! HE TRIED TO HIDE THEM ALL FROM ME. I want him to fix them all together or pay for it.

OK. At last, after months of him stepping on my head, I stood up for myself

I’ll Start Again

bimbimo — Tue, 03 Mar 2009 18:06:34 +0000

Hey it’s been months since I’ve stopped blogging. So far in my life now, I’ve got a part-time job at Cotton On ( clothes store), got to spend time with mom playing kites with her and i’ve been single for 1 yr 2 mths now. Oh yeah and so far no new girl in my life. Except for this one, but she’s far away. Mom gave her my email and she added me through facebook and we’ve been talking alot on the phone. And yes…. my bill went up to $400. hahaha yeah i know it’s a lot to pay. But hey, I’ve got my job to pay off the bill. But my planned trip to Jakarta was cancelled cause of that.

Oh yeah I finally said hi to Mai after soooooo many months. I guess I needed time to freshen up my mind. I read her blog the other day and she was having problems with her life. So that was the reason why I started a conversation with her on MSN earlier. I figured she needed someone to cheer her up. Shit, I know she has a boyfriend now. But I couldn’t help it. We webcammed, chat and sang. We sang old songs that reminds us of the times we had then.. hmmm. I was singing Untukmu Selamanya by Ungu to her on guitar. I could have sworn she shed a tear.. I don’t know why she did though..She sniffed. Well, if she did, I just want her to know that I’ve shed my tears for her before that I just couldn’t cry anymore now. I like it when she keeps looking at me on the computer screen.

Tomorrow I’m gonna be working from 12pm – 4pm and then head home to rest. Yeah I had fever today. I’ll be signing off now then. Gotta get more rest.

Nowhere End

bimbimo — Sun, 28 Sep 2008 05:14:25 +0000

Had tons of fun celebrating Ex’s,Farah birthday. She turned 15. I gave her a birthday card and a t-shirt . And hell was i glad that it fits her just nicely. Cuaght up on things and the past with her. It would have been a year if we didn’t break up that January. Some people find it weird that we’re ex bf and gf yet we still are friends. Well, to all boys & girl out there. Don’t let relationship ruin your friendship. Go figure!!!

When will “she” call me? Does “she” ever thought about me? I’m waiting .

Where Are You ?

bimbimo — Sun, 21 Sep 2008 04:57:00 +0000

d’Masiv – Merindukanmu

Saat aku tertawa diatas semua
Saat aku menangisi kesedihanku
Aku ingin engkau selalu ada
Aku ingin engkau aku kenang

Reff :
Selama aku masih bisa bernafas
Masih sanggup berjalan kukan slalu memujamu
Meski ku tak tahu lagi engkau ada dimana
Dengarkanlah aku kumerindukanmu

Saat aku mencoba merubah segalanya
Saat aku meratapi kekalahanku
Aku ingin engkau selalu ada
Aku ingin engkau aku kenang

Untukmu Selamanya by Ungu

bimbimo — Fri, 19 Sep 2008 15:09:03 +0000

tak pernah aku mengerti
apa yang kini aku rasakan
kegelisahan hatiku saat ini

ku masih merindukanmu
walaupun kiniku tlah bersamanya
tak pernah mampu ku coba lupakanmu

Chorus:
sungguh tak bisa
ku mengganti dirimu dengan dirinya
sungguh tak sanggup aku
berpaling darimu

sungguh tak bisa
ku mencintainya tuk melupakanmu
sungguh tak sanggup aku
berpindah dari hatimu

Chorus 2x

sungguh tak bisa
ku mencintainya tuk melupakanmu
sungguh tak sanggup aku
berpindah dari hatimu

I didnt move on that fast. i still do think about you.

Semua Tentang Kita

bimbimo — Fri, 19 Sep 2008 15:06:21 +0000

I miss “her”. Badly.

But I know I can’t do anything about it.

Well I could drop “her” a text msg but “she” changed her number without telling me the new one.

I remember……

when you used to ride on my skateboard while holding my hands and afraid to fall but i was there to keep you from falling,

when you came over at my place and we gossiped so much,

when you used to call me bimbim,

when you used to bug me for Indonesian music,

when we used to fight over the phone or text messages,

when you were always too busy for me.

I can’t remember much as you didnt have the time to get with me.

Seandainya kamu tau betapa kangennya aku sama kamu.

Terasa sakit . sakit sekali pabila ku ingat tentangmu.

Her Post. Crushed .

bimbimo — Thu, 18 Sep 2008 15:37:25 +0000

I can’t remember when was the last time i felt this happy.

Its funny how strangers,become friends,then lovers &then strangers again.
Its funny how you told me that all you wanted was me,and you would do anything do be with me.
Its funny how you make me feel that i was the bestest thing that happened to your life.
Its funny how i always think of you when songs on my Ipod are played.
Its funny how you make me laugh over the same old jokes.
Its funny how you said that i was the only girl who could brighten up your day.
Its funny how i always do not have time for you.
Its funny how i never really told you how i felt.
Its funny how you moved on so fast.

Girls,playing (too) hard to get is never the right move!

Moving on…

I just felt like someone shot me through my heart when i read this.

After everything has ended, she says all these.

It got me thinking. And yes….

I MISS HER.

but .

I just can’t let go of chassy just like that.

She knows about this and told me to go back to “her”.

I don’t wanna be that type of guy but my heart’s going 2 ways now.

I just feel alone. Confused.

And i guess there’s no turning back .

“she” wanna move on i guess.

Feelings mixed up after reading that post.

“she” was playing too hard to get with me and regreted it.

I don’t know what to do.

But I won’t leave Chassy just like that.

I’ll be responsible for her feelings towards me now.

Life has just begun.

Jangan Bilang Tidak

bimbimo — Tue, 16 Sep 2008 13:49:08 +0000

Gw udah nemuin pengganti si “dia”. I think I’ve endured too much pressure and emotional crisis from “her”.

I think I have to move on. “She” doesn’t want me. I’m trying to get you out of my head slowly.

Chassy, she’s someone new in my life yet I expect a lot. I hope we could go on. and I hope you’re the type of girl that I want.

Oh it’s Farah’s(my ex gf) birthday next thursday and I already bought her something. I hope she will like it but I won’t say what i bought. Incase she’s reading this blog. haha.

Gw addicted to JANGAN BILANG TIDAK . a song by raffi ahmad and some girl i don’t know. It’s a movie soundtrack from the movie Bukan Bintang Biasa. GO WATCH!!!! try also FROM BANDUNG WITH LOVE!!

Akhir Cerita Kita

bimbimo — Sun, 14 Sep 2008 05:32:33 +0000

SORRY SORRY SORRY.. been busy all these while with school.

Had fever yesterday but im alright now.

And what’s the news between me and her? Udah ga ada apa-apa lagi.

Dia yg bilang gw dan dia cuma teman. Tapi kenapa dia jadi emosi waktu gw nelpon cewek lain. Yang dia bilang ” no wonder you didn’t contact me much for 2 days, you found someone new”

The truth is, gw baru aja kenal tu cewek untuk beberapa hari aja dan gw sibuk banget ama kuliah so that’s why gw ga contact dia . Tapi dia ga mau dengerin penjelasan gw. Begini lah kalo punya “cewek” yg sok nasihatin “DON’T JUMP TO CONCLUSION.GET YOUR FACTS RIGHT” Dia sendiri yg jump to conclusion bahawa gw uda punya cewek laen. taeeeeekk amet.

Dengerin gw, kalo lo anggap kita berdua cuma temenan, kenapa harus marah2 dan jealous gitu terhadap gw contact cewek lain?

OH YEAH! Lo juga bilang ” leave me alone!” Kalo itu mau lo, terserah. gw bakal ninggalin lo. Yg pasti lo akan bahagia tanpa gw. lo makan tu kata-kata lo sendiri. Udah cukup gw disakitin . you think about yourself.